Post by Sw on Oct 27, 2004 23:18:26 GMT -5
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Scarlett knew Mrs. Meade, and Mrs. Merriwether, were in her setting room with her mother-in-law. The old busybodies just were dying to see the newest Butler. In a few minutes they would be up to see her and Gerald. One good thing about being on bed rest Scarlett, thought she could fake being tired in order to get rid of the 'old cats'.
Gerald who was sound asleep in Scarlett's arms moved his lips dreaming of eating no less Scarlett thought smiling. Scarlett found she never tired of looking at Gerald. It was like he was he first born child. This was the way she should have acted when Wade, Ella and Bonnie, had been born. Scarlett clearly remembered this was the way Rhett had acted when Bonnie was a new born. The simply way Gerald, would discover his hands or feet amazed Scarlett greatly.
Rhett of course was no different he loved holding and watching Gerald as much as she did. Anytime Rhett was home, he was laying next to her in bed. They would pass Gerald between each other. It was hard to believe five days ago Gerald hadn't been part of their lives.
Harder yet, was when Wade, and Ella, would come into Scarlett's room to play with their baby brother. It was than Scarlett would notice Bonnie's absence. She should have been here, her blue eyes looking into those of her baby brother’s. Bonnie had been a mini her, just as headstrong, and stubborn. Looking back now Scarlett would forever remember her daughter on her pony Mr. Butler waving and, calling for her to watch her take the next jump.
Tears again it seemed as if Bonnie and tears went together anymore. That wasn't fair to Bonnie; she never liked to see anyone cry. Her little soft curlys bouncing around as she ran up the stairs the day Rhett and she returned Scarlett would always remember that as well. Bonnie seemed now like an angel to Scarlett who for a short while they were granted to have in their lives.
Had her mother Ellen O'Hara felt the same way about her three sons she lost as Scarlett felt now? Scarlett had to admit holding Gerald did ease the pain of losing Bonnie but it never took it away. For unlike Scarlett's brothers, Bonnie had lived for five years. Scarlett, and Rhett, along with everyone else who knew Bonnie had to deal with the loss of her smiles, giggles and just her presence it's self. That loss was a giant hole in the Butler house.
Now that Scarlett wasn't worried about hurting Gerald, with her grieve it was time to let it out, only Scarlett let out a moan as she heard Miss Eleanor and the old cats as there voices carried down the hall. Scarlett's plan for a good cry would have to wait until later.
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"Gerald found his hand last night, and soon after it went straight into his mouth." Rhett said smiling as he stood before Bonnie's grave. He like always had visited here everyday. But only found this last week a few moments time each day. Rhett hadn't forgotten about Bonnie, no if anything spending all his time with Scarlett, and Gerald, made him miss her more.
Being around Gerald filled a void in his heart Bonnie's death caused. When his son would open his eyes, Bonnie's eyes the world seemed almost right again.
While Rhett knew Scarlett had wanted Gerald for the beginning to see her show, love and, affection to their baby son amazed him. Scarlett had never been one to like babies not even her own. Now you couldn't pry Gerald from her arms. Rhett smiled to himself as he pictured Mrs. Merriwether, and Mrs. Meade, standing by Scarlett bedside wanting to hold his little pirate. Scarlett would smile and hold Gerald up, but she wouldn't allow him to be touched. The only person Scarlett shared, Gerald with was him, and that was only because he was the father, and wouldn't have it any other way.
"Bonnie, I wish you could see your Mother now. She won't let Mammy near Gerald unless it's to give him a bath or change his clothes. And you Grandmother fights Mammy to do half of those things." Rhett said, with laughter in his voice.
"As soon as your Mother, gets off bed rest I pity poor, Mammy she won't get not time with Gerald at all." Rhett said looking at the headstone that held his daughter's name.
The first time Rhett had come here after Gerald birth t had been difficult. Rhett had prided himself on the fact he always told Bonnie everything he would have if she had been alive. Sometimes he actually believed she could hear his words and smiled down upon him. Before Bonnie's death, Rhett hadn't believed in heaven or hell after he knew there had to be a heaven because that's where Bonnie was. But that day as he stood before her grave and told her about her brother's birth Rhett understood tat he sounded happy. He shouldn't though here he was at his daughter's grave sounding happy that was cruel.
Only it wasn't for at that second he remember Bonnie's smiles as she asked when the baby would come. Bonnie would want to know these things, so with that in mind Rhett would come everyday and tell Bonnie tales of her baby brother.
"I miss you, Bonnie." Rhett said as he ran his fingers over his daughter’s name. “So does your Mother" Rhett found his eyes full of tears he wouldn't cry anymore. Bonnie wouldn't want that." Ella and I went to the park yesterday. We walked your kitty cat around. Ella had named her Blue those two have become best friends." Rhett stopped trying to think of something to mention about Wade.
"Wade, is already talking about all the things his going to teach Gerald, when he gets older."
Rhett turned as he heard footsteps behind him. Standing there was Ashley Wilkes the man had a lost bewildered look to him. His eyes held nothing but sadness in them.
Rhett at first held his tongues not sure if Mr. Wilkes wanted company are not?
"Captain Butler" Ashley said as he came to stand beside him. He had been surprised to see Rhett here. Ashley had thought Rhett would be home with Scarlett and their new baby.
"Mr. Wilkes" Rhett replied kindly. Since Gerald's birth, Rhett found his jealous over Ashley all but disappear replaced with pity for the gentleman who had lost his whole world for the second time. The first had been when the war ended. Of course his promised to Melanie always played on his mind as well.
"I didn't expect to see you here Captain Butler, I thought you would be home with your new born son.” Ashley said trying not to let the sight of Rhett standing before his daughter's grave bring tears to his eyes, gentlemen didn't cry.
Rhett turned to look at Ashley the man was broken it was clear to see and hear in his voice." I would there now but Mrs. Merriwether and Mrs. Meade or paying Scarlett and my Mother a visit. Both I'm sure want to see Gerald for themselves."
Ashley smiled and it had warmth behind it he hadn't felt in many months. “Gerald Butler that's a fine name. I’m sorry I haven't called on your house to congratulate you on your first born son.” Ashley said remember Beau's words earlier that morning about how the baby looked just like Rhett. "But I don't think it would be very good for Scarlett to see me like this...After everything you both been through you deserve this happiness....Not some half crazy man around scaring the baby."
Rhett nodded his head not knowing how to reply to Ashley words. Deciding the best thing to do was change the subject Rhett asked "How is the Mill doing?"
"It's doing well" Ashley answered hoping his words were true he hadn't been to the mill all week, after hearing the news of Gerald's birth. It brought up all the memories of Melanie wanting another baby so badly it cost her, her life.
"Captain Butler, are you still planning on taking Scarlett on that trip to Paris?” Ashley asked remembering how Melanie had thought it had been a wonderful idea.' Scarlett needed to get away go someplace where she could forget all the pain.' had been Melanie exactly words.
Rhett hadn't forgotten his promise to Scarlett. Only new he wasn't sure if Scarlett wanted to go or not. She hadn't mention Paris since Melly died. But now that Gerald was around Scarlett beamed happiness perhaps she didn't need the promise of Paris any longer to cheer her up?
"If Scarlett still wants to go. Yes."
Ashley looked at Rhett and saw the man who Melanie always had. Next to him stood a gentleman even if he didn't want to be one Rhett Butler was one to the truest forum. If he was your friend there wasn't anything he wouldn't do for you, you need only asked. Mr. Wilkes had never before been able to see what Scarlett saw in her husband until now. Captain Butler had spoiled Scarlett rotten. If she wanted anything all she had to do was ask and Rhett would more heaven and earth to get it for her.
"I must be going Captain Butler, India and Aunt Pittypat or probable holding lunch for me.” With the tip of his head Ashley was gone leaving Rhett alone wondering if their conversation was that start of a new found friendship?
Scarlett knew Mrs. Meade, and Mrs. Merriwether, were in her setting room with her mother-in-law. The old busybodies just were dying to see the newest Butler. In a few minutes they would be up to see her and Gerald. One good thing about being on bed rest Scarlett, thought she could fake being tired in order to get rid of the 'old cats'.
Gerald who was sound asleep in Scarlett's arms moved his lips dreaming of eating no less Scarlett thought smiling. Scarlett found she never tired of looking at Gerald. It was like he was he first born child. This was the way she should have acted when Wade, Ella and Bonnie, had been born. Scarlett clearly remembered this was the way Rhett had acted when Bonnie was a new born. The simply way Gerald, would discover his hands or feet amazed Scarlett greatly.
Rhett of course was no different he loved holding and watching Gerald as much as she did. Anytime Rhett was home, he was laying next to her in bed. They would pass Gerald between each other. It was hard to believe five days ago Gerald hadn't been part of their lives.
Harder yet, was when Wade, and Ella, would come into Scarlett's room to play with their baby brother. It was than Scarlett would notice Bonnie's absence. She should have been here, her blue eyes looking into those of her baby brother’s. Bonnie had been a mini her, just as headstrong, and stubborn. Looking back now Scarlett would forever remember her daughter on her pony Mr. Butler waving and, calling for her to watch her take the next jump.
Tears again it seemed as if Bonnie and tears went together anymore. That wasn't fair to Bonnie; she never liked to see anyone cry. Her little soft curlys bouncing around as she ran up the stairs the day Rhett and she returned Scarlett would always remember that as well. Bonnie seemed now like an angel to Scarlett who for a short while they were granted to have in their lives.
Had her mother Ellen O'Hara felt the same way about her three sons she lost as Scarlett felt now? Scarlett had to admit holding Gerald did ease the pain of losing Bonnie but it never took it away. For unlike Scarlett's brothers, Bonnie had lived for five years. Scarlett, and Rhett, along with everyone else who knew Bonnie had to deal with the loss of her smiles, giggles and just her presence it's self. That loss was a giant hole in the Butler house.
Now that Scarlett wasn't worried about hurting Gerald, with her grieve it was time to let it out, only Scarlett let out a moan as she heard Miss Eleanor and the old cats as there voices carried down the hall. Scarlett's plan for a good cry would have to wait until later.
*~*
"Gerald found his hand last night, and soon after it went straight into his mouth." Rhett said smiling as he stood before Bonnie's grave. He like always had visited here everyday. But only found this last week a few moments time each day. Rhett hadn't forgotten about Bonnie, no if anything spending all his time with Scarlett, and Gerald, made him miss her more.
Being around Gerald filled a void in his heart Bonnie's death caused. When his son would open his eyes, Bonnie's eyes the world seemed almost right again.
While Rhett knew Scarlett had wanted Gerald for the beginning to see her show, love and, affection to their baby son amazed him. Scarlett had never been one to like babies not even her own. Now you couldn't pry Gerald from her arms. Rhett smiled to himself as he pictured Mrs. Merriwether, and Mrs. Meade, standing by Scarlett bedside wanting to hold his little pirate. Scarlett would smile and hold Gerald up, but she wouldn't allow him to be touched. The only person Scarlett shared, Gerald with was him, and that was only because he was the father, and wouldn't have it any other way.
"Bonnie, I wish you could see your Mother now. She won't let Mammy near Gerald unless it's to give him a bath or change his clothes. And you Grandmother fights Mammy to do half of those things." Rhett said, with laughter in his voice.
"As soon as your Mother, gets off bed rest I pity poor, Mammy she won't get not time with Gerald at all." Rhett said looking at the headstone that held his daughter's name.
The first time Rhett had come here after Gerald birth t had been difficult. Rhett had prided himself on the fact he always told Bonnie everything he would have if she had been alive. Sometimes he actually believed she could hear his words and smiled down upon him. Before Bonnie's death, Rhett hadn't believed in heaven or hell after he knew there had to be a heaven because that's where Bonnie was. But that day as he stood before her grave and told her about her brother's birth Rhett understood tat he sounded happy. He shouldn't though here he was at his daughter's grave sounding happy that was cruel.
Only it wasn't for at that second he remember Bonnie's smiles as she asked when the baby would come. Bonnie would want to know these things, so with that in mind Rhett would come everyday and tell Bonnie tales of her baby brother.
"I miss you, Bonnie." Rhett said as he ran his fingers over his daughter’s name. “So does your Mother" Rhett found his eyes full of tears he wouldn't cry anymore. Bonnie wouldn't want that." Ella and I went to the park yesterday. We walked your kitty cat around. Ella had named her Blue those two have become best friends." Rhett stopped trying to think of something to mention about Wade.
"Wade, is already talking about all the things his going to teach Gerald, when he gets older."
Rhett turned as he heard footsteps behind him. Standing there was Ashley Wilkes the man had a lost bewildered look to him. His eyes held nothing but sadness in them.
Rhett at first held his tongues not sure if Mr. Wilkes wanted company are not?
"Captain Butler" Ashley said as he came to stand beside him. He had been surprised to see Rhett here. Ashley had thought Rhett would be home with Scarlett and their new baby.
"Mr. Wilkes" Rhett replied kindly. Since Gerald's birth, Rhett found his jealous over Ashley all but disappear replaced with pity for the gentleman who had lost his whole world for the second time. The first had been when the war ended. Of course his promised to Melanie always played on his mind as well.
"I didn't expect to see you here Captain Butler, I thought you would be home with your new born son.” Ashley said trying not to let the sight of Rhett standing before his daughter's grave bring tears to his eyes, gentlemen didn't cry.
Rhett turned to look at Ashley the man was broken it was clear to see and hear in his voice." I would there now but Mrs. Merriwether and Mrs. Meade or paying Scarlett and my Mother a visit. Both I'm sure want to see Gerald for themselves."
Ashley smiled and it had warmth behind it he hadn't felt in many months. “Gerald Butler that's a fine name. I’m sorry I haven't called on your house to congratulate you on your first born son.” Ashley said remember Beau's words earlier that morning about how the baby looked just like Rhett. "But I don't think it would be very good for Scarlett to see me like this...After everything you both been through you deserve this happiness....Not some half crazy man around scaring the baby."
Rhett nodded his head not knowing how to reply to Ashley words. Deciding the best thing to do was change the subject Rhett asked "How is the Mill doing?"
"It's doing well" Ashley answered hoping his words were true he hadn't been to the mill all week, after hearing the news of Gerald's birth. It brought up all the memories of Melanie wanting another baby so badly it cost her, her life.
"Captain Butler, are you still planning on taking Scarlett on that trip to Paris?” Ashley asked remembering how Melanie had thought it had been a wonderful idea.' Scarlett needed to get away go someplace where she could forget all the pain.' had been Melanie exactly words.
Rhett hadn't forgotten his promise to Scarlett. Only new he wasn't sure if Scarlett wanted to go or not. She hadn't mention Paris since Melly died. But now that Gerald was around Scarlett beamed happiness perhaps she didn't need the promise of Paris any longer to cheer her up?
"If Scarlett still wants to go. Yes."
Ashley looked at Rhett and saw the man who Melanie always had. Next to him stood a gentleman even if he didn't want to be one Rhett Butler was one to the truest forum. If he was your friend there wasn't anything he wouldn't do for you, you need only asked. Mr. Wilkes had never before been able to see what Scarlett saw in her husband until now. Captain Butler had spoiled Scarlett rotten. If she wanted anything all she had to do was ask and Rhett would more heaven and earth to get it for her.
"I must be going Captain Butler, India and Aunt Pittypat or probable holding lunch for me.” With the tip of his head Ashley was gone leaving Rhett alone wondering if their conversation was that start of a new found friendship?