Post by Sw on Oct 28, 2004 10:27:34 GMT -5
Title: Rhett's Thoughts
Author: Sw
Disclaimer: I don't own Gone With the Wind or Scarlett. I just write for fun and am not making any money off of this.
Summary: Rhett's Thoughts during Scarlett the book.
Rhett's Thoughts
If I close my eyes for a brief second, sometimes I can almost believe what I've done is nothing but a bad dream.Usually about that time Anne will call my name and I smile pretend to be happy to see her.When the person I really long to see and hear calling my name is Scarlett.
I always fight back the laughter at myself for, I'm no better then Scarlett was during or marriage.She had always been dreaming of Ashley, while now I will always dream of her.
Guilt eats at me everytime I see the look of love and happiness in Anne's eyes.She's young and sweet a Lady no less.Whatever am I doing married to a Lady? When my heart lives half way around the world? Anne truly loves me, like Melanie had Ashley. The wrong I've done her, I could never repay. Melly what must she think of me? She always believed I was a kind person if she saw me now would she still think that?
I'm much worse then Scarlett was, for once she discovered her love for me she came begging for my forgiveness.Wanting to shower me with the love I had longed twelve years for.I don't like thinking about Scarlett, or the pain she must have felt learning first of our divorce, then my remarriage.
Only after my marriage to Anne did I learn where Scarlett had went to.She hadn't ran away like I always do.She had just been visiting her grandfather. When I heard that it took me back to our last night together, how Scarlett truly gave herself to me.What did I do in return? I pushed her away threw her love back into her face.I did her the greatest wrong a man could ever to to the woman he loves, and I will regret it to the day I die.
No matter how much time goes by or children I have with Anne when someone says Mr. and Mrs.Rhett Butler, I always think there talking about Scarlett and I.
I shouldn't have been afraid that night of the storm, I should have taking Scarlett in my arms and never let her go.
It kills me to think of her with anyone else.Yet, Scarlett has to live with the fact I pushed her aside and married someone else.That Anne is my wife now.That Anne, not she will bear me more children.I own that to Anne she loves children and while I will love any child she gives me.They will never fill the place Bonnie did.No the only child that could ever do that will never exist.The child to do that would have to be Scarlett's and mine.
What a mess I have made.Scarlett will never forgive me, and I found I will never forgive myself for hurting her so.I can only hope she will move on with her life, even if my heart never will.Everyday I ask myself this one question and find I can not answer it without dread, anger and regret filling me.What have I done? I fear I shall never truly know.
The End of Part One.
Here is the last part.
This takes place during the end of Scarlett the book.While Scarlett is sleeping in Rhett's arms. Again this is in the first person.
––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––
I have a daughter, Scarlett has giving me another daughter.Only now as I
hold Scarlett as she sleeps close to me do I realize the wrong I've done
her.I always blamed myself and felt guilty for hurting her.But to learn
I had not only hurt her but my only child as well.There is no words for
the pain I've caused Scarlett, myself and Cat.
Learning just this morning Scarlett was engaged I had felt like I had
been hit and the wind knotted out of me.After all this time when I was
finally free to be with Scarlett, again she decides to marry someone
else.Was this her cruel idea of payback? God knows I did deserve it.So
when I saw her, the way she was dressed, I lashed out to drunk at the
time to notice the look of love burning in her eyes.
It was only after I left the race and was getting my bags together did
the thought occur to me, that perhaps Scarlett didn't know of Anne's
death. That she only had learned of the baby to be, but not the sadness
that followed.Then with no hope left for us in her mind accepted this
Lord Fenton. With that as my answer I left on the train and then headed
for Ballyhara.
If indeed Scarlett wanted me, she'd know I would go there. And no matter
what even if she loved this man she was promised to, I would make her
love me again.
It seemed like a dream now getting to Ballyhara only to find the whole
town deserted.Finding Scarlett on her knees by the redcoat.The shots
fired grabbing Scarlett,the way her lips felt on mine when I kissed her
quickly.The fear I could make out in her eyes when I told her the house
was empty.
Not if I lived to be a hundred will I forget the shock of learning of my
daughter.All this time when Anne lost the baby the first time I already
was a father again.I just didn't know it.Are when I sat and watched the
baby, Anne had died having dying thinking I would never have another
child I already did all this time.
Fear of where Cat was over took my anger at Scarlett for not telling me
about her birth.Once we had found her even though it was dark there was
no mistake the second I saw her, I knew this was my daughter she looks
just like me.Running through the tunnel with Cat on my back, even
running for our lives I hadn't felt happier since before Bonnie's death.
Having Cat show me the way to her tower on horseback reminded me of the
many times I took Bonnie with me on rides through Atlanta.It was
wonderful to have my child in my arms like that again.After Scarlett had
joined us and we were all in Cat's tower, and I stood watch over the
latter.Did I notice Scarlett love for Cat. she held our daughter so
tight never wanting to let her go.That's when I knew, Scarlett had grew
up without me.Perhaps that's what she needed.I was holding her back.But
what a cruel way to be forced to grow up.Having your husband divorce you
pregnant and alone.
First thing in the morning when Scarlett awakes, I will ask her to marry
me again.This time we will do it right, no more ghost to follow us into
this marriage.As I look to Cat's sleeping forum I regret everything I
did to be rid of Scarlett.How could I not?
Scarlett has given me, the one thing I always wanted and finally am able
and willing to accept, her love.With dreams of or future planted in my
heart and head.I close my eyes knowing for once my dreams could never be
as wonderful as reality.
The End.
Author: Sw
Disclaimer: I don't own Gone With the Wind or Scarlett. I just write for fun and am not making any money off of this.
Summary: Rhett's Thoughts during Scarlett the book.
Rhett's Thoughts
If I close my eyes for a brief second, sometimes I can almost believe what I've done is nothing but a bad dream.Usually about that time Anne will call my name and I smile pretend to be happy to see her.When the person I really long to see and hear calling my name is Scarlett.
I always fight back the laughter at myself for, I'm no better then Scarlett was during or marriage.She had always been dreaming of Ashley, while now I will always dream of her.
Guilt eats at me everytime I see the look of love and happiness in Anne's eyes.She's young and sweet a Lady no less.Whatever am I doing married to a Lady? When my heart lives half way around the world? Anne truly loves me, like Melanie had Ashley. The wrong I've done her, I could never repay. Melly what must she think of me? She always believed I was a kind person if she saw me now would she still think that?
I'm much worse then Scarlett was, for once she discovered her love for me she came begging for my forgiveness.Wanting to shower me with the love I had longed twelve years for.I don't like thinking about Scarlett, or the pain she must have felt learning first of our divorce, then my remarriage.
Only after my marriage to Anne did I learn where Scarlett had went to.She hadn't ran away like I always do.She had just been visiting her grandfather. When I heard that it took me back to our last night together, how Scarlett truly gave herself to me.What did I do in return? I pushed her away threw her love back into her face.I did her the greatest wrong a man could ever to to the woman he loves, and I will regret it to the day I die.
No matter how much time goes by or children I have with Anne when someone says Mr. and Mrs.Rhett Butler, I always think there talking about Scarlett and I.
I shouldn't have been afraid that night of the storm, I should have taking Scarlett in my arms and never let her go.
It kills me to think of her with anyone else.Yet, Scarlett has to live with the fact I pushed her aside and married someone else.That Anne is my wife now.That Anne, not she will bear me more children.I own that to Anne she loves children and while I will love any child she gives me.They will never fill the place Bonnie did.No the only child that could ever do that will never exist.The child to do that would have to be Scarlett's and mine.
What a mess I have made.Scarlett will never forgive me, and I found I will never forgive myself for hurting her so.I can only hope she will move on with her life, even if my heart never will.Everyday I ask myself this one question and find I can not answer it without dread, anger and regret filling me.What have I done? I fear I shall never truly know.
The End of Part One.
Here is the last part.
This takes place during the end of Scarlett the book.While Scarlett is sleeping in Rhett's arms. Again this is in the first person.
––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––
I have a daughter, Scarlett has giving me another daughter.Only now as I
hold Scarlett as she sleeps close to me do I realize the wrong I've done
her.I always blamed myself and felt guilty for hurting her.But to learn
I had not only hurt her but my only child as well.There is no words for
the pain I've caused Scarlett, myself and Cat.
Learning just this morning Scarlett was engaged I had felt like I had
been hit and the wind knotted out of me.After all this time when I was
finally free to be with Scarlett, again she decides to marry someone
else.Was this her cruel idea of payback? God knows I did deserve it.So
when I saw her, the way she was dressed, I lashed out to drunk at the
time to notice the look of love burning in her eyes.
It was only after I left the race and was getting my bags together did
the thought occur to me, that perhaps Scarlett didn't know of Anne's
death. That she only had learned of the baby to be, but not the sadness
that followed.Then with no hope left for us in her mind accepted this
Lord Fenton. With that as my answer I left on the train and then headed
for Ballyhara.
If indeed Scarlett wanted me, she'd know I would go there. And no matter
what even if she loved this man she was promised to, I would make her
love me again.
It seemed like a dream now getting to Ballyhara only to find the whole
town deserted.Finding Scarlett on her knees by the redcoat.The shots
fired grabbing Scarlett,the way her lips felt on mine when I kissed her
quickly.The fear I could make out in her eyes when I told her the house
was empty.
Not if I lived to be a hundred will I forget the shock of learning of my
daughter.All this time when Anne lost the baby the first time I already
was a father again.I just didn't know it.Are when I sat and watched the
baby, Anne had died having dying thinking I would never have another
child I already did all this time.
Fear of where Cat was over took my anger at Scarlett for not telling me
about her birth.Once we had found her even though it was dark there was
no mistake the second I saw her, I knew this was my daughter she looks
just like me.Running through the tunnel with Cat on my back, even
running for our lives I hadn't felt happier since before Bonnie's death.
Having Cat show me the way to her tower on horseback reminded me of the
many times I took Bonnie with me on rides through Atlanta.It was
wonderful to have my child in my arms like that again.After Scarlett had
joined us and we were all in Cat's tower, and I stood watch over the
latter.Did I notice Scarlett love for Cat. she held our daughter so
tight never wanting to let her go.That's when I knew, Scarlett had grew
up without me.Perhaps that's what she needed.I was holding her back.But
what a cruel way to be forced to grow up.Having your husband divorce you
pregnant and alone.
First thing in the morning when Scarlett awakes, I will ask her to marry
me again.This time we will do it right, no more ghost to follow us into
this marriage.As I look to Cat's sleeping forum I regret everything I
did to be rid of Scarlett.How could I not?
Scarlett has given me, the one thing I always wanted and finally am able
and willing to accept, her love.With dreams of or future planted in my
heart and head.I close my eyes knowing for once my dreams could never be
as wonderful as reality.
The End.
